The state of cupcake’s oven, AKA Nutella

So, based on last week’s ultrasounds, today marks 7 weeks 1 day.  According to the people that know about these things, this week and the next few are big growth and development weeks.  As a consequence, they can make the baby mama feel like crap.  I can’t say that I disagree.

On the whole I would say I’m doing well, but the unending queasiness is getting old.  I have some very specific and odd food aversions and after a horrid episode of heartburn/reflux last Friday, I am very wary of acidic foods.  Tomatoes, most fruit juice, and all green veggies are out.  Low sodium saltines and ginger ale are my friends.  And oddly enough, I’ve been craving mildly spicy asian rice noodles.  Which do not give me heartburn.  Huh.  Chicken is hit or miss, I can’t stand to be near it raw.  Dairy is fine, carbs are fine.  Very sugary foods make me feel not so great afterwards and I haven’t been craving them, much to my surprise.  

I’m more tired than usual and seem to need more sleep.  The bloat is still there.  Bought a new bra last Saturday in the next band and cup size up.  It’s already getting too tight.  That part is going to get really old really fast.  I have very big b00bs and a small band size, so bras are difficult to find in the store.  I have 1 go-to style but at $55 each I really would like to not have to buy many more of them.

Emotionally, I am still keeping my distance.  There is a part of me that is so anxious, so afraid that this isn’t going to be the happy ending that we want it to be.  I’m not being eaten up with worry, but I am holding back my joy.  I do think that good news on Monday will do a lot to ease my fears.

Strawberry has been astoundingly wonderful and supportive.  She’s taken over making dinner most nights (something that she typically despises and that I typically enjoy).  She indulges my wallowing on the couch all night and keeps at me with reassurances and cuddles.  Reading aloud from the horridly sexist baby book that we got at a used book sale and scoffing at it.  There is no way that I could do this without her and I love her so much.

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9 responses to “The state of cupcake’s oven, AKA Nutella

  1. I’m sorry you’re feeling so sick and tired. You have a good reason to stay firmly fastened to that couch – you’re busy growing eyelids or fingernails or somesuch.

    I hope that the anxiety eases up after good news on Monday. These early days were torture for us.
    vee

  2. You will feel better, both physically and with the anxiety. I was so glad when I finally did, I’m still thankful everyday.

    Oh, and they sell “bra extenders.” I’m going to go buy one today to try to get a little more life out of this bra.

  3. I hope the queasiness goes away – that sounds like an awful daily reality. I agree, stick to the couch!

  4. nothing like these moments when we feel crappy to show us how wonderful our sweet ones can be… sucks that you can’t peal yourself off the couch, but it is the best that strawberry can surround you with her love and cookin’ and remind you why you are making babies with her 😉 i’m gonna hold out for your happy ending, it is ok if you need to worry about it sometimes… we will all send enough good vibes to balance things out.

  5. OM FUCKINGGOD!!!! OMFG!!! OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am so glad I read this! OMG, girl, I’m so excited for you!!!! 😀

    I know you’re worried & apprehensive, so I’ll be the one to be RIDICULOUSLY EXCITED FOR YOU GUYS!!!! 😀

  6. I’ll be excited for you guys too!! Sprinkle is happy in there, you’ll see.

  7. I’m sorry you’re not feeling well. At least you’re over half way to the end of the first trimester! That always cheers me up these days 🙂

    I’ve had a few panicky moments lately too. If my morning sickness is better, does that mean something is wrong with the baby? We just have to try trust that everything is going okay, even if there is no physical eveidence of it.

  8. On the bra thing – try buying some extenders. They will give you a larger band size at the very least.

  9. Is it one of those “expecting” books?

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