The last few days have been really annoying, confusing, and angry making. TTC has messed up my body. Let me explain.
Today is CD1. Yeah, you read that correctly. Remember how I started spotting 5 days ago and was expecting CD1 to immediately follow? Well, it didn’t. I had 1 day of light spotting, 1 day of bright red spotting, then 1 day of light spotting again. Then I had a whole day with no spotting or bleeding. And my temps were way high. Pregnancy pee sticks were negative. But everything was very confusing so I went ahead and had the blood test done at the RE yesterday morning. And the hope crept back in. Not a lot of hope, but enough so that when they called with the expected negative we were disappointed for the 2nd time in 5 days. Finally, this morning my temp dropped, I’m bleeding for real, and I have my typical CD1 cramps.
That makes the last cycle 28 days, my longest ever in over 2 years of keeping track. And the symptoms have been new, too. The TWW symptoms I’ve had are NOTHING like my PMS symptoms. On the one hand, it gives me a bit of hope that SOMETHING is happening in there. But on the other hand, if this happens for a few more cycles i’m going to begin to think that something is happening, just not necessarily a good something.
Right now, we are resolved to begin OPK’s early because I have a feeling that I may O earlier, since this CD1 is so late. And we don’t want to miss it. Also, I have a business trip which will take me out of town CD14-16. I really don’t want to have to skip this cycle because of it. Do you hear that body? Cooperate, ok? Also, this is Eagle Scout’s last shot. The long profile for his replacement should be in the mail and if we like it we’re ordering his swimmers tomorrow.
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